The Beauty of In-between

Well, it’s been a hot minute since I last posted. Don’t worry, I’m alive and well, and I couldn’t be more excited because COLLEGE is right around the corner! I leave in just one week to begin a new chapter of my life. I’m so ready. Or am I??

To wrap up the summer I wanted to quickly share a few highlights from the last three months.

First, I graduated high school! I was one of about 200 homeschool graduates, and it was honestly one of the best memories ever. I enjoyed every minute, but, as expected, could barely eat the entire day…that is until 11pm when I inhaled a stack of pancakes, eggs, and bacon at IHOP. It was all I could have hoped for: graduating with my very best friend, my family and friends there, and never once tripping in those heels. 🙂

Soon after all the graduation excitement died down my 19th birthday came up, and I spontaneously joined my dad on his trip to, guess where? NEW ZEALAND! Yeah you heard that right. Two days flew by. We spent them walking the city streets of Aukland, grabbing cappuccinos and pastries at coffee shops, and taking a ferry to the most beautiful place, Waiheke Island. It had everything from the ocean and beachside seafood restaurants, to hiking trails among jungle-like foliage and waterfalls, to sloping pastures with wineries tucked among the hillsides. It was at these places where I quickly learned I have not yet adapted a taste for fine wines. I took the slightest sip, choked down that distasteful alcohol, forced a smile toward the wine server who waited in anticipation of my approval, and once he turned his back, silently slid the glass over to my dad. Just to clarify, the drinking age there is 18, so yes, I was legal. 🙂

Another highlight occurred in Manitou Springs, Colorado. I left in mid-June for two unforgettable weeks at Summit Ministries. I heard from amazing Christian speakers who shared a biblical worldview of all today’s most relevant topics: homosexuality, world religions, abortion, marriage and singleness, pornography, and evangelism. Not only that, but I met life-long friends and brothers and sisters in Christ who were just as adventurous as I was when it came to outdoor fun: Speed volleyball games, rock climbing, zip-lining, and hiking Pikes Peak to name a few. I don’t think another two weeks of my life have been packed so full of daily exercise, so little sleep, and so many cups of coffee. I miss those times of waking up at the crack of dawn, sneaking down those creaky steps, and settling down on front porch with my Bible and journal. Often one of my friends would meet me there and we would do our quiet time together. One of my favorite mornings was when my friends and I skipped breakfast in the dining hall and went to a coffee shop in town. We had hugeee cinnamon rolls and lattes. It was the best.

Maybe those were the big things, but that’s not to say the other memories weren’t just as special too, like my Dad taking me to ice cream after I did poorly in a tournament, or my parents driving me six hours to California for another tournament the next day. They also took me dorm shopping one night at Target. So thankful for them!

Long story short, it’s been a rad summer. The temptation was often wishing college would start sooner, it couldn’t come fast enough! But I tried my best to enjoy the present, knowing I would miss this precious time with my family and friends here at home in sunny Arizona.

I’ve been thinking a lot of what I need to take with me to college. No, I’m not talking materialistic things, that dorm room checklist is already covered…phew! I’m talking biblical truths here. I don’t know what to expect going into college, but I know that it is going to be new and exciting and challenging all at the same time. I know I’m going to be tempted to put my faith on hold at times, or put Jesus on the back burner. But I would be doing myself a HUGE disservice. If there’s one thing I need to remember heading into my freshman year, it’s that I need Him, desperately. I’ve been going through a study by Jen Wilkin called None Like Him, and I love how she puts in a new light how we were created needy. Here’s something I wrote in my journal:

God created me to need Him. How often I believe I have it all together and forget the truth of my origin! We are needy by divine design and nothing can change that. I need to turn to God, the only one who is self-sufficient, and acknowledge my daily desperate need for Him.

So here’s my prayer, for my college years and forever after:

Lord, let me never forget that I need you. I can’t do life on my own. You are my everything: my light, my joy, my hope, my rock, my comforter, my amazing God. You have given me everything: salvation, eternal life with you, freedom, a new heart, and a new name–child of God. You have rescued me and adopted me as your own. I am now an heir and a part of your glorious kingdom. Now in return, you deserve my everything–all I have to give is yours. Take what little I have and make it into much. Help me to live for your glory. Yes I will fail, but in those times when I begin to live for my own glory and start to wander, take ahold of my heart and remind me who I am. Remind me of what you’ve done, and who you have called me to be. Let me return to you and once again declare you “Lord of my life.” Amen. 

“May I never forget, on my best day that I still need God as desperately as I did on my worst day.”

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