Well, freshman year definitely did not end how I expected it to. Who knew Thursday the 12th would be the day that changed everything? Who knew that I would be packing my bags that night and the following morning would be the last meeting with my team?
It was a rainy day, making it all the more surreal. I got the word that all competitions in the WAC (Western Athletic Conference) had been cancelled. I went to class. Afterwards, I checked my phone as I was headed to my next class: “All CBU practice and competitions are stopping immediately.” The rest of my team that had travelled to Utah to compete were on their way back to campus. The tournament was cancelled. I then proceeded to sit through another hour-and-a-half of a lecture but I barely heard a word from the professor. Everything was changing so fast.
Fast forward two more days, and after a brunch in downtown for one last get-together with the team, I hit the road, headed back to Arizona for an extended spring break. I soon received this message from my coach: “CBU is moving to online classes the rest of the semester.”
So here I am, reunited with the very familiar concept of homeschooling and facing once again the virtual world of education that took me through high school. I’m not complaining though, doing school in pajamas? Um, yes please! The biggest blessing though is by far being all together as a family again. If one good thing came of COVID-19, it is the fact that the world has slowed down and forced people to think about and appreciate the more important things in life: faith and family.
With that said, I thought I would share a little bit about my freshman year at California Baptist University. It was a good one, and I don’t want to forget about it or all the little things that added up to making one of the most memorable years of my life. I loved seeing my teammates everyday, the grind on and off the course, passing familiar faces on campus, the Sunday routine of picking up my friends to make the 9am church service and heading to the caf afterwards for brunch. Oh, and let’s not forget my cute little cottage. Cottage 18, located on the corner of the backstreet, the cutest one on the block. 🙂
I had the best RA I could ever ask for, shoutout to CJ Miller! We had regular cottage movie nights and even created a quote board with all the random, silly comments we made that would make no sense to anyone else. 🙂
I do not take for granted what I have at CBU. I see how God placed me there with a unique purpose in mind. How He brought me to a church right down the road called Redeemer Baptist that felt like home right away and where I hope to become a member in the near future. I see how He made divine appointments with like-minded Christians who would encourage me in my faith. I see how He surrounded me with faithful friends and teammates. I see how He has challenged and grown me as both a student and an athlete.
Although I did not journal as often as I would have liked, I have a few favorites that I wanted to share that walk you through my year:
August 26th, 2019
This morning I woke up at 5am and decided to watch one last Arizona sunrise. Today is the day. I’m officially becoming a Cali girl! Actually, not true. I think I’ll always be an Arizonian at heart. So what does God have for me this next year? I have no clue…but I’m all in to the adventure He has in store. I told Him so this morning when I greeted Him overlooking the valley. I prayed, “Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.” (Psalm 143:8)
“Holy, there is no one like you. There is none beside you. Open up my eyes in wonder and show me who you are and fill me with your heart and lead me in your love to those around me. And I will build my life upon your love, it is a firm foundation. And I will put my trust in you alone and not be shaken.” (My prayer from the song “Build My Life.”)
August 27th, 2019
Sitting poolside at the Mission Inn on move-in day. Yesterday I got to meet my roommate, Faith, and today I’ll finish the job I started and get everything organized. Everything is a little overwhelming right now, but at the moment I’m going to enjoy this quiet morning at the pool…coffee is on its way!
“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” -Matthew 6:33-34
August 28th, 2019
It’s a happy morning, indeed! My first night in my cottage was pleasant. 🙂 It was only me, no idea where the other girls crashed, but it was actually very relaxing to be alone. Wow, am I in love with this place. I woke up at 5am to get ready so I could quickly get outside and explore campus. No one is up at 6am apparently, except the workers that is. I can’t believe I get to spend the next four years on this beautiful campus.
A little reminder: God is great and He is near.
“Am I a God at hand, declares the LORD, and not a God far away? Can a man hide himself in secret places so that I cannot see him? declares the LORD. Do I not fill heaven and earth? declares the LORD.” –Jeremiah 23:23-24
August 29th, 2019
This morning I forced myself out of bed at 5am. Feeling exhausted but at the same time refreshed since I watched the sun come up as I walked/ran across campus. I also sat down by the campus fountain and prayed. I prayed for this year, that I would remain steadfast in the Lord, I prayed that I would not focus on or be swayed by the opinions of other people. I prayed that I would not waste these next four years but that I would use them for God’s glory and follow His will. I prayed for the girls on my team, that they would come to know Christ as their Lord and Savior and that God would use me to plant and water seeds. Lastly, I praised Him for putting me in this time and place. Thank you, Jesus!
August 30th, 2019
First team qualifier today!
Lord, please help me to relax, to try my best and to commit the rest to you. Amen.
September 1st, 2019
What I’ve learned from the last few days: nothing can replace my security in Christ. He made me, He knows me, and He is looking out for me. I might not have found “my people” yet at CBU, but I know that He is my God and I am His. I am never alone. He is always with me and always for me.
October 23rd, 2019
Who I am IN CHRIST: (Eph. 1:3-13)
blessed with every spiritual blessing, chosen, holy and blameless before God, adopted as a daughter of Christ, redeemed, forgiven, I am apart of God’s plan and have obtained a special inheritance. God will work all things out for His glory and my good.
“And my God will supply every need of yours according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and Father be glory forever and ever. Amen.” -Phil. 4:19-20
October 31st, 2019
I have a platform here and now; however small, I have been given the opportunity by God and the power of His Holy Spirit to influence others for His glory. Wherever I am, that is my mission field. Whoever I am with, I am called to disciple them.
Lord, give me boldness to proclaim truth, courage to live it out, joy to lift others up, and most of all love, which is the most powerful thing that always points others to you, because YOU are love.
November 7, 2019
Yesterday was the first official day where I felt at home at CBU. I think I just needed time to rest up after a busy golf season and to appreciate all that I have here. I’m here for a reason and I have a lot to be thankful for. I’m starting to make really sweet friends who can encourage me in my faith.
January 14, 2020
Notes from chapel:
We won’t be distracted by comparison when we are captivated by our purpose.God has established my foundation before I was even born. God created me with perfection in mind. We are in His image, created to love Him, to know Him, and to glorify Him. God prepared me with a ministry in mind that maybe I didn’t sign up for but that He knew I needed. Sometimes our plans need to fail in order for God’s purposes to prevail. My purpose: to have everything in my life point back to God. The world says to follow your heart, but God calls me to His own and says to follow Jesus.
February 17, 2020
I have loved this semester so far. But I’ve noticed I’m now often forgetful of my dependency on God and lack the discipline to consistently spend time with Him. Last semester, when things got hard and lonely, I would run to Him. It’s funny how when everything is going well how I forget I need Jesus just as much on my best days as I do on my worst days! But God has such an abounding grace for me. This morning I was reminded that God’s grace makes my weakness a thing to be feared no longer. The God of grace who calls me to Himself and calls me to live for Him blesses me with the strength I need to do what He’s called me to do.
From my devotional, New Morning Mercies by Paul David Tripp: “Grace frees me from being devastated that I can no longer trust me because grace connects me to the One who is worthy of my trust and who will always deliver what I need.”
“Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They collapse and fall, but we stand upright.” -Psalm 20:7-8